Outsmarted!!!!!!!!!

I think after ages I've been outsmarted and there is nothing much I can do to gain a foothold back... I was thinkin for sometime that I should get back to the person who out smarted me.. but then hey you don't win always... !!!!!!

The saddest being that I've been outsmarted when I expected the least.. atleast I would have been prepared to take it head on but alas being in a remote place doesn't really help the cause... 

But I've promised myself.. I'll get over it and start all over again!!!!!! " Hey just one life and live it to the fullest" and when people come and people go.. Guess I've just got to fend for myself and thatz the only way I can ahead!!!!!!!!!

To believe or not to believe??????

Many a times I believe that I'm at crossroads with friends, folks and my own life. And I've always tried to figure out where this is headed to or whatz it gonna be few years down the line or even a decade later. Most of the time I think most of it will remain the same and we all would have just grown older. But yeah I think I'm always brought to reality with what happens around me.. Though I would love to believe that things will always be rosy.. guess it aint' the same... 

Off late I'm at crossroads for one particular issue which I don't want to mention so as to protect the privacy issues. But it makes me wonder, do people have to always LIE???? I mean I've always believed in taking it head on, be it my boss, my folks, my bro, my friends, my ex-girl friends... But now I'm in a fix.. I think the person concerned is lyin but I'm just not in a mood to deal with it.. I think I should just let it go and time take itz own course and hopefully the person would realize that it ain't worth lyin end of the day..

But definitely one thing for sure..The person would never again gain my trust... not that we can't do without each other but just hoping someday when we cross our ways I only wish the person realizes the damage it has done to the relationship...

Jinxed?????????

I've always nursed a fantasy of sitting next to a pretty woman (stranger) on a bus/train/plane and having a sensible/beautiful conversation and at the end of the journey exchanging nos and emails id and then see how things take a turn. All the 29 years of my travel, it never happened to me. There are too many reasons for it.. On the bus, the operators always make the lady sit separately from men. (in fact they have something called the ladies seat on the bus), on the train and plane I'm yet to come across anybody worth the trouble.

Now why am I saying this????? Well Saturday when I was headed to Mysore and took the state transport, since it is only 3 hours from Bangalore. My friend who is already waiting for me at the bus station head for the ticket counter and the lady at the counter says "Sir, only two tickets available and you can't sit next to each other" which was fine since it was just matter of few hours. So we buy the ticket and board the bus to see that there is a seat at the first row, which my friend decides to take, so I walk to the back of this bus and Guess what??????????? There sits a pretty lady and I get to sit next to her!!!!!! Yeah I was indeed on top of the world for I saw that my fantasy was coming true and just couldn't believe my luck.

I was wondering as to how I'm gonna break the ice and start a conversation with the lady since the bus took about 10 mins to leave I was try to adjust the vent of the air conditioner above my head and she offers her expert advice to switch on the light??? I was like "thanks but I need the air conditioner adjusted and not the lights for two reasons. One it was broad day light and two, they never switch on the main for me to use those reading lights above my head. I thank her for her advice and also let her know that they never keep the mains on for it to be controlled from our end. Now that the ice breaker session was over, I was tryin to figure out as to how to strike a conversation and I was tryin to figure out if it has to be one of those cheesy one liners or What you doing????

Well as I was wondering how to start the conversation, she kinda looks to the elderly person sitting on the next seat and says "PAPAA"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and there came my fantasy crashing down :-(!!!!!!! The entire journey was then spent in contemplation of whether to start a conversation or just forget about the entire thing.. but for sure I decided that I would blog this... coz I could just not believe the luck I have!!!!!! or say the jinx I have on my self!!!!!! Guess thatz another blog I should be writing on Jinxed, Unlucky or Lucky????? But yeah for sure that was one hell of a journey I had...coz I just couldn't stop smiling at my lady luck... :-) and still I can't stop smiling thinking of it!!!!!!!!!

Now sure, few would think, hell what is if her folks are around?????? Yeah even I thought of it but then decided, itz better that I don't strike a conversation, coz you never know what you might end up in and I was not in a mood for asking trouble... well anyways that doesn't mean that I've given up.. I'm still looking forward to that day where I get to have a pretty woman (stranger) as a co-passenger, of course this time not with folks pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!! :-)

Losing Friends???????

I've always wondered how difficult it is to make friends. We all believe in either "Friend's are forever" or "Friend's come and go". I've always believed in the former one but when I see around not many agree with me. Most of them feel only the family saves them when it really matters. But has anyone wondered why it happens? Is it because friend's don't wanna help? NO I think it is because we all never share our probs with them, atleast not everything and thatz the crux of it.

Hell why am I saying all this, coz the reason for this blog is to pen the feeling I get about losing friends. And why am I losing friends? not because they did something bad to me or vice versa. I'm losing most of my friend's to the institution called "MARRIAGE". Agreed I'm still single and have no idea of getting hitched in the near future. But hell why do people change after you get married????? DAmn, beats me. I have tired over a period of time to understand why this happens? Is it because the new person in my friend's life is not accommodative enough of her/his friends? Or she/he needs more time of my friend? What is it?????? I've seen gals/guys under going a sea change which is difficult to digest.

Even in pure business sense, we've all learnt "Retaining a customer is cheaper than acquiring a new customer". Don't you think the same applies to friendship? not in terms of monetary but in terms of building a relationship? We spend years building one, where we share all our darkest secrets and seek help every now and then and all of a sudden something called the "MARRIAGE" crops up and Bingo itz all over, at least it is never the same. What happens to all the years we have spent together through thick and thin of life? All down the drain? And hey itz not easy to make a new friend, and for sure the new one can never replace the old one. Why can't we all be the same even after a disaster called "MARRIAGE"?

I only wish things were much simpler for all of us and we could do a better job, but guess thatz what life is all about, being a fuckin "BITCH"....

Quote of the Day

One of the Secrets of life is to make stepping stones out of stumbling blocks - Jack Penn

Family or Money???

My first day in Dubai has invoked a mixed feeling in me. Firstly, yes I see that there is soo much of money which has been spent by the government for infrastructure, unlike in India where I guess we would never get to see infrastructure like this atleast in our lifetime. Then cars, you name them and you would find them here. But this is irrelevant to the subject I mentioned... But hell just couldn't stop writing about what I saw...

Towards the evening when I went over to Sharjha (which is 20-60 mins from Dubai and has muslim country rules) and I was accompanying my hosts here in Dubai for an appointment with the doctor. I decided i would skip the appointment and walk around the place and came across this place where loads of people from different countries, mostly India & Pakistan, wherein they stand in group either based on State wise or country wise. It was very mixed a feeling to see people who have sacrified everything, like their family, native, friends & relatives, to make that money and send it across to them so that they can live a decent life. But how many of them live here in decent accomodations??????? most of them stay in cramped places with 4 to 8 people staying in one single room and all for some money?????

What makes me ponder is "Is this all worth it???????"

Dubai Land of Gold and Opportunities????

After months of anticipation of my trip to Dubai, here I am packed and all set for my trip to Dubai- The land of gold and opportunities. The start to the trip was a double whammy for me coz to start with I was going to see the brand new airport at Hyderabad, which I was doubting if I could get to see it, now that I’m moving my base to Bangalore, then the trip to Dubai. Heard so much about it and it was just the matter of seeing it I guess.

Thanks to my dear friend, Mark aka Santhosh

Kick Start at last!!!!!!!!

Well for years and literally years I have been wanting to blog but was always worried as to how and even more worried about the mistakes I would make while writing. But recently I had my school teacher with whom I touched based after 12 years of passing school and she for some reason sees me as a successful guy. Now thatz something which can be contemplated or argued upon but then hey even I feel I'm done pretty good for myself. She wanted me to share my story with some magazine which she writes for. Now the catch was that I had to write it and send it across to her. Hell has may have it, I just couldn't find the time and even worse I just couldn't get myself to start writing. But I made it a point to visit yesterday when I came down to Bangalore for the long weekend and tell her that I might need some more time and also I have my self doubts about writing it, especially me being a big critic, and don't want to be critizied for what I write. Secondly, I started to read this blog of my American Friend, who recently added me on to Facebook and bingo I found the inspiration to write and ask me why????? well just that she wrote what she thought and I had heard her saying things and she penned the same. Now thatz was the trick to blog, "Instead of speaking, just start tying" and fcuk the grammer and whatever else!!!!! Thanks Theresa, if not for you I would have never started this... And here I am writing my first blog (actually second, can't figure out what I wrote first but it was very short, and thatz all i remember and have no idea where to see that again).

Yes, today being a Sunday and in Bangalore, my purpose of visit was that my friend from school days, I mean from nursery and stuff like that, he was getting married and I wanted to attend it.. But itz funny, coz that guy too works in Hyd and we have never bothered to meet up rather than just running into each other twice in last 21 months in hyd.. Hell thatz bad but guess we just couldn't get our wavelenght right. But still I attended his wedding and why? well thanks to orkut I guess, coz we were atleast exchanging pleasantries with each other. Went with mom and bro for the wedding and met few friends from school and few family friends and then left to meet few friends who came to bangalore to party.. and then went to Java City and there was this band which was playing live music ( now thatz a BIG weakness for me ) though didn't know a single song they played I just enjoy it. Sat there for 2 hours and read a book ( currently reading on Yaser Arafat ) and thanks to my bangalorean friends, who were supposed to turn up in an hour and went on to be two hours.. but yeah enjoyed it. Wait... forgot to say.. there I saw this pretty lady who had the best smile i've seen in years in Bangalore.. I just couldn't resist stealing looks at her and worse felt like walkin up to her and sayin that she had this cute smile and would she care for a coffee or tea.. whatever, all i needed was to get to know her.. but alas she had come with her folks and guess what.. they are mallus too ;-) but you know it never happens like that here in India, wish things were different here, I would have atleast walked up to her if not for her folks but then we are all taught that thatz not manners right??????? I'm only wishing that I would run into her some day and get to say that "she indeed has a cute smile". Well after two iced teas few smokes my friends turn up, again it was the school crowd and it was fun catching up with them and guess what I end up having "FRESH lime soda, salt & sweet", hell that isn't me.. being in Bangalore and not having beer.. but guess I was just too tired to have any more beer.

But it was surprising to see that the two friends (ashok & tejas- we studied together for 13 years together) were getting married within a span of a month, gosh I knew tejas was getting married in may but ashok?????? anyways he was sitting there and telling me how I should get married and I just told/rather requested not to screw my evening by talking that subject. We are out here to enjoy and don't give me any discourses!!! PLEASE..... sweet guy he obliged... then we finish our drink I get dropped and then take a bus and reach/rather walked home.. was surprising to see folks still awake at 11 but yeah itz kinda nice to see someone home awake when I reach... and then I start my bloggin and hoping that this would be the first of the many too come..